Things I never could say

I was content before you with my life and how I was living it, letting my dreams stay hidden and far from my reach never going after them because to me they were impossible to get to. But you saw something in me and believed in me and that’s something I never felt before, it’s gave me the courage to start believing in myself. I became unsatisfied with my life unless I was with you or talking to you because you got my hopes and dreams you inspired me with just a few words. It was if you could read my mind. Before I knew it I had fallen in love with you for the person you were and I couldn’t stop it no matter how hard I tried. All I wanted to do was what you had done for me, give you the unconditional belief in yourself to go after whatever it was that you dreamed of even if it meant losing you in the process. You’re happiness was all that mattered. Because in the time I’ve known you you brought me so much happiness that I never knew was possible. Acceptance and understanding of who I am, even in my darkest times. My love for you will never change, it will never fade, and I will never regret all the time spent growing with you. You gave me something I’ve never experienced and never thought possible for myself, courage to go after what I want, and belief in who I am. For that I am eternally grateful, for that I love you deeply and unconditionally.

#confessions #youwereunexpected

Just Another Girl

I’m just the joke
The pretty face you see
You’ll try and take me
But you’ll never claim me
That’s not how you see me

I’m just the one night stand
To get you by until next time
I’m just the friends with benefits
That you see no future with

I’m the girl you don’t want to get to know
Cause I’m only here to pass a little time until the one you really want shows

And I’ll be left with my head held up like I didn’t care at all as my heart turns to ice with each step that falls
Wondering if there’s just something wrong with me
and wishing I could be invisible, maybe then I wouldn’t be used
Wishing I could be cold, maybe then I wouldn’t played by the same old rules
Wishing I could walk away, maybe then I’d still be the person I was before, Instead of being just another girl.

I gave it all, I gave it everything I had, I can never get it back!

I was just the joke
The pretty face you saw
You tried and took me
But you never did claim me
That’s not how you seen me

I was just a one night stand to get get you until next time
I was just the friends with benefits that you seen no future with

I was just a girl you didn’t bother getting to know because I was only there to pass some time until the one you really wanted showed

I was left with nothing but heart in my hands
And the memories like ships in the sand,
Fading like everyone before, asking myself how did I get it so wrong thought you’d be the one.

So just leave me to wishing I could be invisible, maybe then I wouldn’t be used.
Wishing I could be cold, maybe then I wouldn’t be played by the same old rules
Wishing I could walk away without a second glance, maybe then I’d still be the person I was before.
Instead of being just another girl.

#anxiety #used #invisible

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