Have you ever taken a step back and looked back on all your choices that you made in your life that lead you to where you are today? Wondered if you made some different ones where you would be at? I know, I know we aren’t suppose to contemplate the what if’s but the fact is we do, at some point in our lives we do. What if we didn’t date that person what if we didn’t take that job, etc, where would we be, how would our lives had turned out? Truth is we are exactly where we are suppose to be right now, to learn what we are suppose to learn and meet who we are suppose to me, I’m a firm believer in everything happens for a reason even if we don’t know what that reason is at that exact moment in time. Life can be so hard at times that we feel like giving up, I know I’ve been there, thinking to myself, everyone would just be better off without me, nothing seems to go the way I would like it to go anyway, what’s the point? I’m constantly struggling and I’m just tired of fighting. Truth is I was tired of being alone and being strong, I needed help, lucky for me I had a friend that would listen to me, see I didn’t want to die it wasn’t like that. I just wanted to be seen, and known, truly known. I wanted to be believed in when everyone else had seemed to give up on me. This friend gave me that… it gave me the strength to see that I had fallen into the deepest depression I had ever been in, and seek help. Truth is I don’t know what will happen with me, at this moment I feel more like myself than I have in a long time but I’m also aware that it could change and I could be sucked back into the darkness and emptiness i’d Grown so accustomed to without even knowing. I’ve always been a fighter since the day I was born to early so I will continue to fight, but one thing I’ve always wanted to do is help others as well. So if this finds you, and you feel alone, if you feel like picking up that blade to cut yourself to let that pain out because you feel it’s the only way, please let me say you are not alone, I’ve been there. I know how you feel like you can’t breathe until you see that blood surface, I’ve been where you are. I understand. I’m here to say you aren’t alone and you’re life matters, and you can overcome this. It’s hard. But you can overcome it. I believe in you.